I met a friend though xbox over 8 years ago, me and her have been talking every since, i decided to meet up with her finally after 8 years and we hit it off, we had so much more in common than i thought. I didnt try anything on with her when was there, because i actually just enjoyed her company, done a lot of nice things though looking back at it and even paid for dinner, but came home and got so confused.
May of over thought things i really dont know, but obviously something changed, because before i was there we were talking daily, she would send me pics and videos daily of her, inc one that threw me of her in bed waking up where you could clearly see she was topless but didnt show anything.
Then when i was there bearing in mind 1st time we met, she got changed in front of me, said sorry for flashing me at a different albeit i wasnt actually paying attention. Even took my photo without me knowing which was odd as she knows i dont like my photo taken
After i come back the texts kept coming but pics and videos stopped. Because were in lockdown i asked her if she wanted to come to a hotel with me not stay just come over and walk the grounds with her dog as it had lovely scenery and then i would drop her off and go back and stay there as i had a business meeting close by the following day. She then asked to stay which threw me completely considering we had only ever talked about being friends nothing more.
Next day came she changed her mind, we ended up arguing and tbh i cant remember what it was about, i told her i wanted to come and see her so we can actually talk this all out to which i got the reply please dont.
I deleted snapchat after that, she blocked me on facebook, still friends on xbox though so i thought give it one more chance. Sent her a message a day later on whataspp thinking she would of blocked me on that too and to my suprise i got a reply. Things were amicable and then she tried to push me away and then blocked me before i could send the final message. After a day of me talking with friends i noticed i was unblocked again and the convo had been read
Now she does suffer a lot with anxiety, doesnt have a lot of good people around her. I cant keep going round in circles and i find texts to be the least form of communcation because you can hide behind it.
Im at a loss to do because we both talked a lot over the years, both i and her know a lot about each other. I was the 2nd guy she allowed over to her house which she seemed to want to tell me. I dont want to just ignore her and kinda wanna actually sit down and talk. So my question is would you drive all the way up there and then try to speak to her or would you just let it go