So about 6 months ago by long term boyfriend left.
He said he didn't love me any more and that was that. (A lot has happened in the past)
To begin with I was fine, I thought it would be easy to get over him but as time has gone on it's got harder and harder.
I can't just cut all contact as we have kids together.
I can see why we aren't together and what was going wrong, I still want to be with him but I respect that he doesn't have feelings for me any more... but it's the jealousy that is breaking me.
Any little thing regarding another woman will make me jealous.
I need this to stop but I don't know how. I get lonely when the kids are in bed and then my mind goes mad. I try to sleep (not great at sleep!) But then I have dreams of him with other women... It's like a never ending cycle. I hate it.