As the title says really. It's not been great since we had kids. We go through good times and bad times. We are both probably as bad as each other really, taking each other for granted, not spending enough time together, not making the effort etc.
I have felt for the last few months the only one making any effort anymore (initiating sex, planning childcare for time alone etc) has been me. When I talk to him he either looks like he hates me or just can't be arsed. Its got to the point where I just don't bother anymore because I'm sick of giving and getting nothing back.
It reached a head this week when he didn't want to talk to me because he was tired. He then sat up until the early hours talking with his friends on xbox. I told him yesterday I didn't want to live with someone who didn't want to make an effort to show me affection or attention. He has said its probably a good idea we have some space. He's moping around like a sad dog. I have nothing to say to him.
It hurts so much that he would happily let our family fall apart instead of actually showing me affection. Which just confirms what I knew that he doesn't love me anymore. I don't think there is anyone else. Just his precious xbox.