I feel like I just need a pep talk. Husband and I separated a few years ago, and I just ended a short relationship with a guy and I'm feeling a bit down about that..
Me and my husband were pretty happy, overall. We had lots of good times, but, he was terrible at applying for jobs and awful with money. So all the adulting fell to me. And it wore me down. Coupled with his inability to handle stress, which in turn led to wholly avoidable disasters happening. It all got too much and I left him.
While all this was happening, I met a guy. He was very handsome, and I developed a wildly inappropriate crush on him. I didn't act on my feelings, but at the time I guess I saw it as yet another reason to leave my now ex.
As time has passed, me and my ex have stayed on friendly terms. The crush guy.. I told him I liked him. But he told me, because he's also friends with my ex, that he would never date me. I'm so gutted. I've been on so many dates with guys, I've also, dated two guys exclusively, but I just haven't felt that spark. I know I have to forget about v handsome crush guy, but I'm just not meeting anyone I feel that way about. And weirdly - and I'm probably over thinking this - but I see myself in the women he dates. My personality. I have picked on vibes that he does find me attractive but I have to take what he said at face value, of course.
I'm just feeling so crappy right now. My ex is loved up with a new girlfriend. She sounds like a great match for him, and while I'm pleased he's happy, I've just broken up with someone and I can't help feeling sorry for myself because I keep thinking, what if I don't meet anyone else?! What if nobody else makes me feel the way my ex did, or even the v handsome crush guy who won't date me?? I know it's unlikely, and I probably will, but I'm finding dating again after so many years of being married really really tough.
Some words of advice, encouragement, wisdom would be really appreciated right now. Or, failing that, lots and lots of gin please.