What is wrong with me

[Leftfalangie]

Im just sat in the car and just feeling this sheer sadness but i cant do anything about it. I know ive made the biggest mistake of my life by marrying him, there was nothing there in the first place i was in a really bad lace and just loathed myself and was on a bit of a mission to just destroy myself as i felt i was nothing of worth. But i did it anyway and went ahead with everything 3 years on it had got from bad to worse and i just can do nothing right my self worth is worse than before. I hate him, there is nothing about him that i can say i like let alone love . The only thing he has give he is a child. I love my boy but i just dont know how much long i can do this, i genuinly feel like im going to have a break down

That sounds nasty - is he actively unpleasant to you, or do you just not like him?
You know you made a mistake, and why. That means you can do something about it; it will just be hard work. You'll need some support - friends, professionals?

Quietly speak to a solicitor pronto. You don't have to stay in this situation. You deserve to be happy.

Also, maybe speak to your GP. You sound so sad and they may also have some advice. You may be depressed but there is nothing 'wrong' with you. You are in a tough place and need support and a plan.

Sending hugs.

People separate from their spouses/partners and go on to divorce every day of the week. Thousands of them. Seems like a big deal at the time, quickly becomes history.

You can set up custody with him (if you trust him with your child) and only have contact via an email or phone specified for access arrangements. You could get someone else to do drop offs and pickups if anyone you know would do it.

You don't have to stay in that situation. First step is working out how you'd manage financially.