So I can’t sleep and can hear DP of 5 years downstairs, but it seemed weird as all the lights were off. He always comes to bed way later than me cause he just doesn’t need as much sleep so that’s not an issue.
I went downstairs to check if he’d maybe fallen asleep on the sofa and caught him lying really awkwardly on his phone. I asked him what he was doing he just said nothing and he wasn’t tired. I noticed on his phone screen he was reading an article about “what really keeps couples together” can’t remember the exact title but something like that. I then saw his boxers on the floor and it clicked he’d been masturbating so I said something like “oh I know why you’re up with all the lights off now” and he said it was really awkward and he was sorry.
I’m not really sure why I’m posting as I know he probably masturbates quite often as we only have sex once a month (I’m on antidepressants that kill my sex drive, and also he’s really big so it’s quite painful when we do have sex)
I just feel weird now and need somewhere to vent, to be honest I think it was more the article than anything! Lying in bed wide awake and I’m really sorry to people reading this but I just feel a bit ... strange?