I'm ending my relationship. And it's because of lack (of sex, intimacy, him initiating things, showing care/desire etc) not overt abuse. I've tried for many years and feel like I've read every relationship book.
So, it's going to be hard to explain to people why and yes, I know I don't need to explain but on the outside we get on and we do get on. And on the outside he seems friendly and kind, and up to a point he is, until he isn't. So, I'll look like the shit basically.
I do have some friends but they like him so have shut me down when I've tried discussing things or tell me to be happy with what I have. And I realise now that my friends want me to be there for them, I have listened for hours upon hours to them. But now I'd like some advice or support, they're nowhere to be seen. We're all in hard times currently and everyone is going through it, I do get that. So this isn't the time to end something, but I am, I've put it off and put it off and just gotton more miserable. But it's just so isolating.
Normally people may say join groups, make new friends- I have and I'm on zoom ALOT. And zoom is not the same as meeting new people in RL. And I work by myself so that isn't an avenue. So basically, I feel up for meeting new people but at this point it's a challenge.
So it feels positive for me to be ending this, I just wanted to rant to mumsnet. As it also feels very isolating.
Any hand holding welcome.