Hello there,
I need an advice as I'm not sure how to approach this issue.
Have been together for almost 9 years. Husband always told me that he's only excited by sex (he likes to take action). We have a very demanding badly sleeping toddler and with the covid, with the toddler always home, sex life is difficult.
Myself I don't have a lot of sex drive anymore (partly because of this), but I wouldn't (and I never have) refused sex when he wanted.
Except that contrary to what I hear about men, he rarely initiates sex, because apparently I don't look interested (I am affectionate with him). He doesn't propose. He does touch me sometimes when he passes by, so it doesn't seem the case of him not being attracted to me.
I asked him several times if he looks at porn and he said no (obviously). So I had an opportunity to search his computer history tody and I found not only porn, but also him looking for massage parlors. I don't know if he actually went, but I saw several searches on many different occasions...
I don't know what to do. It doesn't help my sex drive knowing that he's looking elsewhere and I can't admit spying on him.