I’ve gone from one unhealthy relationship to another so trying to work on myself.
One thing that keeps coming up is a few experiences a few years ago. I met a guy on tinder, we messaged back and forth and I did a VERY stupid thing. After a few drinks I invited him around, I was clearly very drunk. He told me the next day that we’d had sex and apparently I’d say ‘I don’t want to’ and he told me he said ‘I think you do really’. I don’t remember this. He had a very professional job and for some reason I continued to see him. He was very obsessed with sex. The night that leaves me cold is, following a very bad day I’d been out drinking with my friend, he met me at the restaurant after and kept buying me wine. I’m ashamed to say I don’t remember getting home.
The next day I asked why my coat was wet- he said from ‘when I was fucking you in the restaurant toilet’ I was horrified- I’m not the kind of person who would willingly do that. I was in a dark period of my life and was drinking way to much. Am I overreacting to feel mortified about this? I quickly ended things and he stalked me for months.