Ive been thinking about this a lot recently. I think ive done ok in life (have two beautiful boys, a house and decent job and car, can afford to do things and im happy). Were thinking of moving soon and looking at how much we can afford, we have an eye on a much larger property. I always have this little voice of my mum in my head saying “alright dont rub it in our faces, dont brag” “your a snob” i feel like she was never proud of me “god if you fell in shit, you would come up smelling of roses”. Its like i feel i dont deserve to have these things and be happy, can always feel her sneering at me. I find it really hard to understand why a parent would feel like this for their child. Surely they want them to excel and be happy? Both my parents are dead now so i cant explore this further with them. I feel sad when i look back on my childhood/younger years.
Anyone relate?