I really need some advice, I am a regular poster but have namechanged.My relationship with dp is going drastically wrong I really just feel like curling up in a corner and crying.I dont want to be with him anymore and have asked him to leave but he dosen't I have also recently told his mum whats been going on and her response was "your both as bad as each other" I also started crying to my mum on the phone yesterday (and I never cry in front of anyone) but she just rang back later and asked if I had calmed down.
He has treat me badly for 10 years and I know I have been stupid to stay this long but I only just feel that my blinkers have been lifted and I can see what he has been doing is wrong.
I always felt it was my fault he has been violent and called me awful names he says stuff about the way I look and my confidence is zilch ,he also has a problem with lying he constantly does it and can't see that he is doing any wrong.
I know I'm making myself sound stupid but I am trying to get help this is my problems I do not work and with my kids I can not afford to have no income this close to Christmas .
I can not go to a refuge one of my dd has special needs and it took ages to get her into the school she is in now.
I dont know what I expect you all to say I just needed to get it out .
Thankyou for reading