Starting to hate my ex. Is this healthy?

[NeedtogoNC]

After 3 years of future faking and love bombing it dawned on me that he’s never going to change. So I left him despite him begging me to give it another chance. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and have spent the past fortnight wondering if I have been too hasty ending it.

Since I left, he’s not been in touch at all. This is despite him berating me for not wanting to stay in touch.

I’ve now finally plucked up the strength to block and go NC.

I’m starting to actually hate him now. Hate him for wasting 3 years of my life when he had no intention of taking things to the next level. He was too afraid of his ex wife to tell her about us. After 3 years. They divorced years before we met.

I am now seeing him as a spineless coward but I still love him despite starting to hate him.

Is this normal? I feel like I’m going mad.

He's a great big fat wank twat brilliant

Yes I think he is full of shit. But I’m still torn and confused with the man I thought was my soulmate

If you felt like the OW then you must have had a lot of low times, that's probably why the highs felt so good.

There's millions of men out there who will treat you the same way, give you breadcrumbs and make out that there's some reason you can't be together properly...but still not letting go of you..making you cling onto hope that things will change in the future...it's a powerful thing that keeps women hooked on shitty men...there's nothing special about this one because any of the other million men who do this could have treated you the same and you would have thought they were your soulmate too!

Oh fuck I broke nc.
Told him what thought of him and that he was a spineless coward who didn’t deserve me.

Don’t worry. You haven’t said anything that wasn’t true. Can you block and delete his number now? This might help you move on.