Good morning mumsnet 🙂 Sorry for the long message pls read.
Just wanting advice and I am coming here as I know there is lots of females who have lots of experience in relationships.
I am 24 girlfriends 22 been together 4yrs we broke up about 6 weeks ago now what caused it was on my bday she bought me lots of nice things and did a lot for me and I was a bit disrespectful, not very nice and she felt I didn't appreciate it and we argued about various things and from there 4 days later she ended it with me obviously it was a number of things mainly me never been appreciative of things, not treating her to things as she did me, not been loving enough and mainly she felt I hated her been with her friends when in all honesty I did not I just always felt she prioritized them over me like we have not been on holiday once together in 4yrs but she has been with her friends 2x and she always seemed to do things with them over me thinking back she probably wasn't as bad as I thought but she deffo did more with them than me so it always caused a lot of arguments.
We have spoken every week since for 6wk not always positively mostly badly as it has been me begging for her back with no luck. She has seen me at least once a week only because I have begged her to not because she wants to and it is only for 30mins and when we meet she's actually nice and kisses me and talks to me nicely for few days after but then she turns back horrid after few day. Last Wednesday she met me for 30 mins and we agreed it would be last time we saw each other as it cant carry on if she doesn't want ms so i left her car and that was it we said bye no more contact then 30min later she messaged me saying hi and said " i love you " so we kept talking then Friday she met me for an hour in car as she wont come inside but was really lovely kissing me having a laugh etc then we left then later on that night she met me in car again and we just chilled for 30 mins having a laugh kissing etc then she said Sunday she would come round for pizza and chill for a bit and cuddle so I thought great this could be starting to turn round but of course Sunday came and she let me down totally changed and didnt want to see me which I dont understand.
So as of yesterday we've totally cut contact but I really want her back but it seems no matter how hard i try she will not get back with me she says she really loves me but can't be with me ..what should i do? Do i give her space not contact her and hope she comes back? Or what can i do as i love her so much i want her back. I mean all ive done is beg n plead so shw knowa she's in control and had power so maybe now ive gone she will come running back but i don't know any help would be great.