Iv been wanting to write on here about this for a while but always deleted my post because I know how people are going to judge me but I have literally no one to talk to in real life who I would want to know any of this . I feel so confused and annoyed with myself but here goes . Me and my boss !
Been working for the company 8 years I know there has always been a spark between us and it got a little too much about two years ago that I would change my work schedule so that we didn't have to work together . Still all this time I have thought of him but we have had no choice but to work together again these last 8 months and the spark for me just felt stronger than ever . I did have an idea that he felt that same. It's like we just clicked from the moment we met . We have everything I common . He's so friendly and easy to talk too . He's actually more like a women than a man. We have the same sense of humour which is rare because I would say I'm rather odd lol . Anyways obviously I would never ever tell him how I have been feeling but the other night we were working a night shift and he started looking all nervous and said that he has to tell me how he feels and that he has felt it ever since we met . He said he's so confused and started getting upset as this has never happened to him before . The conversation went on for while . He's married with a little girl . I'm engaged . Long term relationships . Both of us ain't happy but we both have a hell of a lot to lose if we were to leave our partners . Him more than me . He would probably lose everything. I said that to him also i said the grass is never greener and that if he did leave his wife how much crap he would get . He turned around and said but then do I really want to be this unhappy all my life or just deal with all that and then be happy with me . He also said I wish we met years ago . And I do too 😢 I would never in a million years do anything whilst us both being in relationships but I'm pretty un happy too . There's a lot of abuse going on with my relationship and his . Then I wonder is it because we are both unhappy we are feeling like this but I don't think it is . Iv been so unfocused and unable to relax since all this has been brought out in to the open . I'm even considering leaving my job. Anyone been though this and know what the best thing is to do ?