I met a guy about a year ago through friends and there was an instant attraction and chemistry. I had a boyfriend at the time, but we split in January.
Fast forward to march/April just before lockdown and we're talking a lot on facetime and messaging a lot. It was a pretty casual thing and fairly sexual too, but it was obvious we liked each other a bit too. Things were going well until I had a bit of trouble with my mental health in may/june and became a bit moody and not myself. This seemed to scare him away a bit, understandably. We still speak a little bit, maybe a convo or two a week, but not nearly as much as we used to. No facetimes or phonecalls anymore. He doesn't initiate conversation usually, it's often me, but when we do speak, it's friendly and nice. I did apologise for being moody and he seemed accepting but not bothered about continuing things.
When I first met him I put the butterflies and attraction down to lust and ignored it. But to this day, whenever I think about him I literally feel sick with butterflies and my heart just pounds. This has gone on for a year now and I feel like I can't ignore it anymore. I just feel scared to say anything incase he finds me annoying or irritating, plus he lives 2-3 hours away so it's not like I can just go and see him. But the constant butterflies are driving me mad and honestly, I haven't been able to get him off my mind even after a year. I think about him most days, for most of the day. So what on earth do I do? Do I tell him??