No idea why I feel this way. Possibly lockdown. Possibly the responsibility of being a parent and the fact we don't have much money now coronavirus has kindly stopped us earning as much. But I feel meh about my life. I'm 32 and I'm starting to feel I look tireder now. I am not one of the younger women anymore. I'm not old either. But I'm just past the appeal stage I feel! I am happy in my relationship but I can't help feeling sad the fun, passion and excitement will never be as strong as it once was.
Sometimes I look back on days of going out, looking nice, texting lads and getting to know people. The days when you didn't know who you'd meet or love. All of a sudden I'm this tired early 30s mum of two who's life consists of chores, school runs and cooking.
I don't want to cheat. I am happy in a settled way but I just miss my younger self. I miss the random fun and the lack of responsibility.
Is it possible to love your family but miss your youth?