Hello everyone,
Another Sunday of feeling lost. I woke up at 3am, again and can’t get back to sleep. I think back to my old life, in my old home. I was with my ex for 7 years, engaged, owned a house. We split and he was fine. He never showed any emotion, apart from my sadness when he posted a picture of 2 girls all over him (we still lived together at this point). I moved out & he told me to have a nice life. He went away and has been with a girl who lives in Qatar ever since, he lives in London. They went abroad 4 weeks after knowing eachother. He’s lied and lied, I knew about her but he denied it, until I saw a picture recently and he removed all trace of me. My heart sank and since then the anxiety has been awful. I don’t know why I wasn’t good enough, why after so long someone else was. He’s told me he wanted a friendship and to be able to get in touch in the future. Then blocked me, removed all trace of me.
I feel lost, worthless and unattractive. I have taken mirrors down so I don’t have to look at myself. I won’t go out of the house. I am so depressed and heartbroken about what this person has that I don’t that I’d rather not have to live my life seeing them both be so happy