Not me anymore.

[SissyLongStockings]

Ive posted on here before about it so I don't know why I'm doing it again-maybe because it's got worse. My life is really shit and its my fault.
I'm now a heartbroken single mum and I am struggling mentally.
I don't know where I am going, what I am doing and who will help me.
I will be losing my home soon, so more than likely my ex will have my son(which is what he told me would happen)
I have no family that are willing to help.
Suicidal thoughts are becoming more although I don't want to die I want to live for my lo. I told my mum this she said who would look after lo? I said well you, she replied oh I would look after him. No talk of u need help or don't be so silly. Feel so unwanted and unloved.
Lost my job due to Covid. I can't get over someone no matter how hard I try. I'm not an evil person just broken and lost. Been to the doctor and I'm on a low antidepressant. I don't know what to do to help me and lo.

I talk to my ex like he is standing right next to me. I rewrite conversations in my head that we have had and new ones we've never had. I try and tell myself to stop but it doesn't work

Why are you losing your home?

My ex won't pay the mortgage. I went in to temp housing but my car was vanderlized, a lot of people smoking weed sick and urine on the carpet. I didn't want that for lo so I moved back in to the house. The council won't help me again. I can't rent anywhere as I don't have a job so no one is interested

Where in the country are you? Because places like London have lots of accommodation that isn't council. Housing associations.

I was almost homeless when my husband left, wasn't sure if I could afford to rent, got that sorted but council would have to put you into temporary housing or permanent housing if you are homeless with a child. They have to house you both, when I spoke to shelter they told me they would not split a child and mother because of being temporarily homeless. Please dont panic, get into shelter, they are great. You will get through this💐

get onto shelter

I have been in touch with shelter but un able to help. Because the council have me temporary housing they won't help me again. I'm on the social housing but they won't help me with temporary again.

Helped me