Hi all,
I'm new to Mumsnet and I decided I'd join and write this post because I'm feeling really low today and depressed. After 8 years together the father of my 2 year old ended it with me, due to the issues we were having in our relationship. Our relationship was not perfect and maybe toxic, however the good times were good and the bad times were horrendous. He broke up with during lockdown and on top of that found out he was messaging a girl on insta. The break up has affected me to the point where I'm scared to live with just my daughter. At th moment I'm living with my sister and I'm looking for places to move to but I've never lived without him.To top of off we've tried to be mature and only speak about our daughter but I end up getting the wrong impression and think that there's a chance we could get back together. It seems like he doesn't want to be with me. It makes me feel soo upset, I always wanted to grow up having both parents as my dad passed away when I was small and mum passed when I was teenager. Family is so important to me and now without him I feel I can't go on. Ive suffered with anxiety for years and I'm currently getting help for it however the split feels like a major loss in my life. Talking to him on the phone about our child, brings back so many emotions. He was like my best friend as well as my partner. I don't know why I have so much anger towards him and I don't know why it feels like its taking me so long to accept we are over. Does anyone have advice?