Just feeling a bit like giving up. I lost everything at the start of last year, fiancé, prospect of a family, my job, my home. I’ve carried on but along the way I’ve just felt deflated. I have counselling and have done plenty of great things in life for me, while single. Got hobbies and some great friends. Life is ok. I do things ‘for me’ and try and make the most of everything. I enjoy work and my new house. It’s all ok and more than most have I’m sure.
But I just sit here so often and think how did I end up with this life alone? I’m 36 and it wasn’t in the plan to be single still.
I don’t need a man, I don’t need someone to fulfil me. I know a partner doesn’t fix your problems or create a forever happiness. I’m not deluded.
I am hugely lonely though, in the romantic sense, and short of carrying on as I am and dating and trying to meet someone... what else can I do? I don’t want to wake up forever alone, I want a partner.
Has anyone been here? Do you get used to it in time or what? Feels bleak. I don’t want to jet off travelling or do something dramatic. I just want to share my life with someone, as it is. It’s not a desperate plea but a lonely one.