Hi everyone!
I've been in a relationship with DP for 4.5 years. The first 3 years were very loving, we had a good sex life and lots of fun. In the last year or so things dwindled a bit - I suffered with huge anxiety and depression
issues last year. Now we are currently having next to no sex and generally we have been a bit more mopey. I started to get frustrated that he didn't always show his love and affection outwardly enough and I always felt I was planning things etc - basically he was too laid back.
This has slowly taken a toll on our relationship and it's gotten to the point where we are constantly overthinking and moping around in our house (we are renting). DP told me the other day that he feels our our relationship is coming to an end and it's run its course. This really panicked me. We mutually decided we wanted a break and he has now gone to see his parents for a few days.
But I've spent the last few days realising that it's ME that isn't happy, not our relationship making us unhappy. He's a fantastic and caring partner. But I have realised I wasnt happy in myself and I was looking for him to fill the void, instead of finding happiness for myself.
I'm worried now it's too late and I don't want to mess him about, but clarity has made me realise that the issues are down to my mental health. I really do love him so much and I'm scared it's too late and that he will come home and call it quits for good. What do I do now?