It’s Over Yet Again & I’m Back to Square 1 Again

[Eddiewasmyfavouritecharacter]

Hello.

Boy oh boy would I appreciate some advice.

I’m recently separated from my husband. It’s our third big break-up and I always wondered why I went back time and time again...yet now that I’ve made the break & Separated him, I miss him so much. I feel so lonely. I remember why I went back before..I find it hard to be alone & so hard to be without him. I actually feel tempted to go back.

But it didn’t work ... at all ! We did counselling together & I did it alone too. A lot came before this decision to break up our marriage.

What’s wrong with me? Do other people feel this way too?

Why is it so damn hard to be alone & without him? I feel so very very low.

I’m really open to advice on this. Thank you thank you thank you.

Thank you. My H had a few sides to him and I think that’s what’s hard. I can’t hate him — it’d be easier if I could. How did I get entangled in such a long & messy situation. I feel so damn lonely. I can’t volunteer anywhere right now due to Covid but it is a good idea. I know there are plenty worse off and I do try to remember that.

@Eddiewasmyfavouritecharacter

Ex left me three years ago. As lock down happened he turned up after months of NC. Homeless jobless and pennyless. I told him I would never turn my back on him. He is the children's father. He just used me again. So I have to go as low contact as I can for my own good. He is manipulative man who uses everyone. I'm better off on my own.

Just go Day by day plan something for you each day.

Sorry to hear that @unicornsarereal72

Thanks — planning for every day is a good idea.

They way I moved on was to go NC 100%.
It was the only thing that worked.

I wrote down a list of the bad things about him and anytime I felt weak, I would read that list.

Change up your routine too. Try some new things. Talk to some different people.

@RantyAnty

Thanks. I’m not ready for NC yet. I find it hard to let go! ... & I’m in a stressful friend situation too . Life can be funny!

I still feel like we need each other. I do need to broaden my horizons though. I’ve a very small circle of friends. It’s not easy these days as everyone is staying in more due to Covid.

I’m going to deactivate my account now as I’ve become rather obsessive about checking it and have got little else done today as a result!

Thanks to everyone who gave advice .