Split up with exdh end of last year. Made a promise to myself that I didn’t want a relationship again and I still don’t. I did miss sex though as I hadn’t had sex with exdh in years.
I met a really nice guy through a mutual friend. We were just chatting for a few months then started meeting up every couple of weeks from about July. He lives 2 hours away which is a bit of a ball ache. He’s really lovely, ridiculously clever and funny, amazing in bed and now I fucking like him.
We both went into this saying we just wanted a friends with benefits situation and I think that is all I still want. He’s made it clear that he’s not interested in seeing anyone else and although I’m not seeing anyone else either, and don’t want to see anyone else, I haven’t told him this.
I really, really don’t want to like someone to the point where if they left it would hurt me. I think at this point I could just call it a day and it would all be fine but each time I see him I like him more 🙄. I also don’t understand why he’d want to see me as he’s way out of my league. But then again, in the future if I do want a relationship with someone and I’ve just decided not to carry on seeing a really lovely, kind, funny man in case I get hurt and I end up with one of the men holding a fish from Tinder instead, that would be shit too.
Please someone tell me what to do with my life.