I'm 40-something, single and I've got a mad crush on a guy I barely know.
His company are doing some work in the garden of my block of flats - random rather than consecutive days, so I never know when he will be here. I think the work will finish soon.
We've chatted a few times and he seems really nice, professional, friendly and with the odd flirty (in my mind) smile/wink thrown in. He's about my age.
We interact = I'm so happy. I don't see him = sad. It's like being 15 again with a crush on my teacher.
He's all I think about, I'm totally obsessed. I've found out his name (he owns his company) and appears to live fairly close by. So everytime I pop to the high street etc I could potentially bump into him - adding a bit of excitement to a trip to Tesco! But can't find him on socials. He could easily be married.
Meanwhile lockdown was crap (obviously) and my return to Tinder etc since has just resulted in meeting guys I don't fancy. In fact he is the only guy I've fancied for ages- it's like a reminder that I can still "feel it". I WFH generally anyway but quite bored of work at the moment - so no wonder a hottie wandering around outside is exciting.
Why am I like this? He could easily be a massive dickhead as very hot men often are. I've invented his personality in my head. I literally don't know him. I need to get over it and move on...but how?