Been with him 7 years, have one 3 year old child together, I have a previous 10 year old and he has an 11 year old daughter. It has been up and down for a while I feel he is bipolar and has massive issues needing to grow up, drugs when he goes out etc which he seems to have settled the last year. Lockdown was a nightmare spending all that time together that after a row we broke up. He moved to his dads house like he always does. His family all talking about him saying about his temper and his mood swings etc but everyone seems to lick his arse and never pull him on his behaviour. He is obsessed with the honeymoon stage and saying I have changed so much Over the years, it’s called growing up maybe you should try it. I have tried to match him sexually, I have tried to argue back, I have tried to not argue back, I do not know what this man wants in life. He came back asking for another chance saying we need to make more effort with each other which I do agree (we stopped kissing cuddling etc because who wants to cuddle a man who walks round moody and snappy all day?) I agreed and now I wish I hadn’t. It’s been 2 months and at first it was lovely and we went to Wales to visit family when lockdown was eased a little etc, anyway he is back to work now and I am working from home with 2 kids so for me it’s still very difficult and he gets to work away and think his life is great. Anyway he has started a row today over something so pathetic (we haven’t argued once since we decided to give it another go) and it just opened a flood of horrific messages at me, saying I’m lazy all I want to do is sleep (beczuse he wakes at 6am and I dared sleep till 8.30 when I’m alone with the kids all week every week) i have struggled with my weight since I had my youngest to be honest and I am carrying perhaps 1 stone more than I would ideally like but he brought this up and said I am lazy that I am the worst eater he has ever seen that my diet is horrific that I don’t do anything about it bla bla bla, just some really horrible stuff about a situation he knows I hate. Saying we are boring again and I am the woman he wanted to leave all over ago. Literally nothing has happened. I am sat baffled and I can’t speak to anyone because my friends have already had enough of him and I feel like I have nowhere to turn. He is so nasty when he’s angry and why is he angry?? He said he’s making all the effort and I’m making none which simply Proves he is a mental case if he believes that to be true. I feel like I am walking on egg shells, what the fuck am I doing?? He doesn’t seem to understand mind being tired and not having the energy to go to the gym etc also I have no childcare when he is away as my parents are key workers and have worked all through lockdown so who’s meant to have my children while I go to the gym?? I wish I had his life and he could have mine so he could see how it feels to be with someone who not only points out your problems but uses it as excuses not to be with you. He’s not giving me the cold shoulder messages me saying ‘Night’ like u have done something wrong because he’s woke up today and decided to start ww3 over nothing. Surely there has to be more to life than this