I have been with my husband for a few years now. Things have not been great pretty much from the early days. He drinks heavily, is often grumpy and then once in a while losses his control so much that he throws furniture and stuff around, not caring about how much they cost etc. Sometimes he even talks about suicide. We have kids. While this has been very upsetting for me, one part of me still feels for him. We have had yet another of these “episodes” recently. Each time, I keep thinking whether this is the time that we should separate, but each time I don’t find the strength to walk away. Please don’t judge me, I just want to feel that I am not alone....