August 15, 2020 4:06PM in Chit-Chat
Hi ladies, hope everyone is healthy and safe!
I am posting here looking for some solidarity because I feel a little down today. I feel ridiculous even posting here with all the injustice and madness going on in the world but I feel what I feel and would love some solidarity.
I am 31 and been divorced since I was 28. I feel like I have created a pretty great life since then. I just started a great new job working from home, am back in school pursuing my dream to become a nurse, have a lovely circle of friends and am quarantined with my lovely family.
Since my divorce, I’ve dated in the past 3 years but that only led to quite a bit of disappointment and heartbreak. Though I will add I have met quite a few men that were perfectly lovely and chivalrous that I just didn’t click with. So it gives me hope. But mostly I overall find people (men and women for friendships) are just ingenuine, like to play games and aren’t interested in putting forth any effort. This is hard for me because I pride msyelf on being an open and honest person with genuine intentions. I am nowhere near perfect but I’d never ghost someone for no reason or string someone along.
I feel like a healthy & happy relationship is so out of reach for me and I marvel that others were lucky enough to find kind, wonderful partners. It makes me feel rather unlucky and like an outlier since so many around me are in happy relationships. I recently ended a 6 month long relationship amicably (great guy, treated me well, we just had very little in common)
So even though my life is moving in another direction, being single still really bothers me. I’m not even dating at all and 100% focusing on myself, friends and nursing school for now. Honestly, I have found single life very peaceful overall so far. Reading the Relationships thread on Reddit reaffirms my decision to stay single 😀
If a relationship happens, it happens. But I am unsure of how to reconcile this idea with the fact that I am terrified I will be alone the rest of my life. I just want things to fall into place.
Has anyone been in my boat? How did you deal and what is your story