Hi Everyone,
I don't know if I'm doing this right, I hope it works.
Brief overview: (l'll keep it as short as possible)
Me and my other half have been together for 15 years, We have a 9 year old son who is beautiful and wonderful. We haven't been able to conceive a second child which has been frustrating and we have been trying for many many years.
Our 15 years haven't always been happy, but the good times have outweighed the bad hence why we stayed together.
To put it plainly he is paranoid, and constantly accuses me of cheating, this year has been the worst of them all. It's every week. Thing is, I don't have any friends or any family, I don't go out to do anything other than shopping. I don't cheat and never have. His accusations just get crazier and crazier. I caught him checking my dirty underwear for proof I was sleeping around!
Today it happened again, he's sending cruel horrible text messages telling me what I've done. I tried reasoning with him as I do every time but it is fruitless. I sent him a message saying I would pack him a bag and he could collect it after work, that hotels are open now so he can book himself into one.
He sent a few nasty messages afterwards, telling me I was guilty. That he was 100% sure I've been behind his back etc, he said he'd collect his bag and go to his mums.
I'm puzzled as a few weeks ago when this flared up then, and he was leaving me as he accused me of being on whatsapp and talking to other men. (I was on whatsapp, so my son could speak with his teachers during lockdown) I was devastated a few weeks ago, I couldn't get out of bed I was so upset. Now, I'm not upset, perhaps the tears will come flooding this evening when I see him or when I'm alone but I don't feel upset, I feel strong, like I'm not taking this crap any longer, I don't deserve it.
I'm just a little confused, he has been all I have for a very long g time and I couldn't imagine life without him. I'm so tired of his cruelty and upsetting comments.