Feeling isolated (not Covid related)

[daisyandbuttercup]

Tonight it suddenly struck me that I am very isolated.
I went to get some petrol and as I was about to pay in the kiosk I looked towards my car to check the pump number when the attendant said "I have got you" I know that he meant that he had seen which pump I had used and that he had my total cost of fuel on his screen.
I realised then that no-one has "got me" in any sense. People dont seem to understand that due to emotional upheaval I am overly sensitive. No-one has my back any more since DH died.
I find all this very hard going. I am likely to be boring I suppose. It is a huge thought to me to consider going out and trying to meet people on my own.
I do have relatives but things are not cordial. I suspect that they might have difficulties but I dont want to be the punchbag in any way.
I have no idea how to rearrange my situation.
Any suggestions or advice? TIA

B⁶

Daisyandbuttercup, So sorry for your loss. It can be Really hard to meet new people but maybe doing things without the intention of just meeting people is a good starting point. Do you have any hobbies/interests or things you have always wanted to try? Fitness/Wellbeing/art/crafts etc...? Maybe find some classes locally and try some out. It will not only keep you occupied but may lead to meeting some new friends with common interests. Or volunteering somewhere might also be a good start.

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@Mynabird and @DoWahDiddy thank you