Hi. Just looking for some advice or to chat really. My life feels like it is in pieces. I lost my pregnancy early on this year, my partner, my hours at work have been reduced, had a leak in my home that has cost a huge amount to put back together, I’m suffering badly with anxiety and trying to hold down a career that is so demanding on less pay than usual (hours cut). I feel awful about myself and my life. I don’t see a way forward. I see family sometimes but they live 45 miles away, so it’s not like they are round the corner. I have friends where I live but everyone is settled down so I rarely see them. We spend time talking on the phone mostly.
Against all of this, two friends got engaged this week. A different two announced pregnancies. My brother gets married in March and it is all we hear about. My ex has moved in with someone within the space of 2 months. I suspect she is pregnant as he wouldn’t commit otherwise like that. I know these things don’t impact my life but it makes me feel so much more alone. I genuinely do not believe I will have these things now. Life just hasn’t happened for me how I had hoped.
Everyday is hard. I’n having counselling. I’m doing what I can but I am not ok. I feel sad everyday. Can anyone help me see the light. My life feels full of darkness.