this is my first post ,so here goes, been married to dh for 33 years and have 3 grown up dc 2 years ago he got his work pension early (55) we planned our future and dreams to go travelling . well around janunary this year he would start saying hes going the shop and be gone for 4-5 hrs when he came back he just said he needed some space this happened nearly every day . after a lot of talking and telling me he loves me and would never want another woman i forgave him and we started a fresh. then around march time i picked his phone up and there was a message he had only been on chatlines ( like reading 50 shades of grey), i went crazy through him out, the following day he came back all sorry made a mistake never happen again he was just bored and wanted to fantasize as we havent had sex for 3 years as he has erection problems like a fool i forgave him again , he said he wanted to be honest and clear the air he said he had the opportunity to have an affair years ago with a work colleague but couldnt as he loved me so much then he started to tell me about the sex he had with an ex. hes my first love so ive got nothing to compare him too . couldnt believe it when this week checking the bank statement and found all his pension has gone plus £2000 overdrawn when i asked him where the money had gone he just said i dont know and stop nagging i late found he has spent thousands of it on chatlines and porn sites .he want talk as he says talking solves nothing and the money has gone so lets move on hes a joke. well as ime writing this hes at the pub cause i nag to much