Hi everyone I hope you are all well
I am in bit of a confused way of thinking and I just need other people's opinions on what they would do if this was them or am I being totally unreasonable. I hate the way I am thinking right now . I feel so horrible . It's bit of a long story so here goes .
Been with my fiancé 11 years . Always got on great with his family until 3 years ago his mum had a hissy fit and practically threw him out of their family . The whole lot have turned against him . Apart from his sister . This all started over his apparently not going over there enough . 4 times a week wasn't enough for her 😴 she's bit of a cling on and always needed to treated like the queen . But would never visit us think she had 4 times in all these years but would go to hers daughters who lives ten mins from us all time time but still say she works too much and is tired ! She works 6 hours a day and is home by 12 pm . Me and my partner work 12-15 hours a day starting at 3 am ! So Iv not got involved with all this even tho when he blocked her she had to try and have to last say and sent me an abusive what's app which I didn't reply to but he did on my phone . He did state it was him .
So after all this time things have got worse . He's been so depressed and it's took it out of him . He won't admit it but it's obvious. Iv been though hell putting up with his mood swings and changes since all this happening but he doesn't want anything to do with them no more and I believe that too . They have all hurt him so much . Now this is where I don't know if I'm cracking up . His sister still keeps in contact but she is just like his mother but hides it well . Acts all caring but runs back to her mother to fill her in on everything . Also kind of only really goes for good what's apping him when it's hers , her children's, or husbands birthdays. Just for gifts and also when she wants something done in her house . My birthday wasn't long ago and I had no happy birthday from her at all . She knew what day it was and also it was all over face book which she is on all day . Still nothing . God help if we missed hers tho . When it was her birthday I wished her a happy birthday on face book in the morning . Out of all the happy birthdays she had I was the only one she didn't like ! Later on in the night it had gone off her wall so she had deleted it . I blocked her after this and literally don't want anything else to do with her . Iv not told my boyfriend this tho . Also I seen her out and about last week and waved she give me a stinking look and give the quickest wave ever and put her hand down . This has topped it off for me .
I have kind of been obsessing over the fact that she's going to ask my partner if he wants to pop over soon and obviously he's going to want me to go and I will not be going . This is the end for me I will never have her or them in my life after all this . I think he knows what she's like but doesn't want to cause any more crap . Or maybe he won't go over I don't know but I have been dreaming about this for a few nights now. How when we buy our new house in a few months she's going to be asking all questions , wanting photos , wanting to come and see it and acting all fake just so she can plaster it all over their family group what's app ! I don't want his family knowing anything about what I get up to anymore .
It's got so bad these last few days since that horrible wave she gave me that I don't even want to have a baby no more because I don't want them coming back in to my life and then my partner making me let them see our baby ! I have even been thinking of leaving him this last week because of all this I just want to cut them all off . As you can tell so much has gone on and happened with them for me to be feeling like this but this would be way too long . Please anyone can I have advice please I feel like the worse person in the world right now ðŸ˜