Married 18 years but I don’t know where to start when it comes to describing what are relationship is like. I don’t feel loved, respected or valued and he says the same. Discussion of this ends in arguments. I think he is depressed (anxiety over Covid isn’t helping things) I’ve kept asking for marriage counselling, suggested he go to see his doctor but he won’t. We have 3 kids, one of which has Special needs which puts considerable pressure on all of us. I can’t imagine life for them without their father living full time with them. I’m tired out and feel like I’m treading on egg shells. What to do?