I'm recently separated from abusive man. Been to a refuge and hell and back but coming out of the other side.
I've got 3 beautiful young children and Ive just turned forty.
Now obviously I'm only focusing on them and not even considering any kind of relationship nonsense but I've just really looked at myself and I can see fat bits, starting to wrinkle bits, tired eyes, puffy face. And it got me thinking, am I ever likely to want a relationship again or even find anyone interested now that I'm in debt (not mine but I've been dragged into it), looking pretty terrible and come with three children.
The ex still looks 30, hasn't had any body changes after 3 kids and is living the high life of course and although this is the best thing I've ever done I'm feeling a bit...I don't know the word.
Don't get me wrong the children are my utmost priority and I'd do anything for them but am I just mum now forever lol. Not that I even mind that to be honest, I think maybe I'm just feeling a bit shit after everything.
This post seems pointless now but there's only a stuffed Minnie Mouse toy to talk to in here and she doesn't say much..ha.
Can't work out if I'm a huge mess or just gradually been made to feel this way