Earlier this year my relatively new DP of a year and I moved in together. We were so happy. I won’t list the day to day stuff but everything was great, he’d talked about marriage and a future and that he wanted me sat on the same sofa with him in 40 years to come. Constantly said to me we were a good team and the best fit he’d ever had with someone. I had no reason to doubt him. Until I fell pregnant, unplanned, and he broke up with me while I was miscarrying (though this wasn’t confirmed until later on, I was mildly bleeding at the time and in pain). He said I had been ‘a mess’ for the week we knew it was happening and that I was someone who couldn’t cope with life’s challenges and that miscarriage wasn’t a big deal anyway. I felt like I had been hit in my stomach I was so shocked, I still feel that way now, it almost makes me lose my breath when I think about it. Luckily I had my own place that was about 4 weeks from being rented out when this happened, so I moved back there. I bled all the way home (two hour drive), with all my things in the car, after he told me I had to move out there and then.
I look back on it now and can’t believe it all happened. I can’t believe that was the same man I met and fell for and spent wonderful days with. It must have been fake. I never heard from him after I left his house, only a text in which he wanted to check that ‘it had gone.’ I never replied and the last thing he said to me was that if I hadn’t miscarried he wanted to be clear he wanted nothing to do with it.
I’ve moved on in the sense that time has passed and I don’t wake up in utter shock anymore. But god it makes me feel so so so hurt whenever I think of it.
Anyone out there to tell me you do get over these things fully and don’t have moments when you still feel in pain about it?