Hi all,
I’ll try keep it brief but I just feel so alone at the moment.
I suffer with anxiety and it does target my relationship. I have always worried on / off whether my partner is the ‘right’ one for me.
We have always got along well; similar sense of humour/values and both caring etc. Always had a good sex life when I’m not overly anxious. We have one child who we both utterly adore.
Lately (since lockdown really) my anxiety about the relationship has returned. In his eyes, we are perfect and he is so affectionate towards me. I’m my eyes, I see us as being quite different and bickering a lot. It’s usually over silly stuff but I just get really annoyed with him sometimes. Then I get upset as I imagine me having to leave him/splitting up our family and the thought makes me heartbroken 😔
I don’t want to stay in something that’s not right for the sake of my family but I like what we have as a unit. Before lockdown, I didn’t feel like this 😔or hadn’t in a long time.
There’s nothing ‘wrong’ I just feel we’re in a slump. He honestly doesn’t think this is the case and just thinks it’s my anxiety playing up. I hope it is but I worry it’s not 😔
Can anyone offer any constructive advice?