I imagined something bad had happened and I got sooo upset, even though nothing had actually happened.

[Moonrocked]

This is weird, I actually think I am very weird! I think there is something very wrong with me and I'm sure once you've read this you will agree with me. So here goes...

Very sadly there was an accident nearby where a motorcyclist lost his life today. The man who I am secretly in love with, who is also a friend is a motorcyclist and as soon as I heard the sad news I was convinced it was him who had died. I got so upset that I cried and cried, I assumed I would shortly hear from someone confirming it was him etc. I checked his WhatsApp last seen and it was before the accident so that just made me convinced it was him as he normally uses WhatsApp quite a lot. I was literally distraught thinking the worst.

He has since been on WhatsApp though not to me so I assume he is completely fine but I'm very confused and freaked out about my reaction to what I thought had happened. Why did I get so upset when I didn't know anything at all?! I mean I obviously care about this man deeply but surely I am not normal here!! Is it just me that does this?!

Don’t be so hard on yourself. If you thought it was him initially then you will think it until you have proof or evidence to say otherwise and you got this from the WhatsApp last seen.

I don’t think it’s weird. You sound quite emotional and as you’ve mentioned you are in love with him maybe it’s time to get your feelings out there, if you can of course.

Intrusive thoughts that provoke extreme (and sometimes strange) emotional responses are common symptoms of OCD.
I know because I suffer with OCD and intrusive thoughts. My imagination runs rampant. It’s awful. I am medicated with sertraline.
If this type of thing happens again, it may be worth seeing your GP.