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Which is the true definition of gaslighting?

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alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 15:41

A/ My ex fiance was an alcoholic with psychosis. I say was, as he died from his addiction.
To me, this is classic gaslighting... he would never recall any of his cruel words or behaviour, conveniently citing being drunk. He would say 'if I said those things, then I am sorry, but I really don't believe that I did, and you are saying this to cause a row...'
He would convince me it was ME with mental health problems even though it was him and ran in his family. He would also tell my friends and colleagues it was me. He'd invent all sorts of stories as to where it had stemmed from , really sick stuff such as my dad's friends had abused me as a child. People believed him :( Some friends and even family members started giving me a wide berth as didn't know how to handle all this.
He would try to convince me no one else wanted me (he did admit to this near to his death) such as I'm too fat, ugly, stupid. That I should feel grateful he had me. In actual fact he was obsessed with me and when I left him he terrorised me and my friends and family as could not let go.
He would plant insecure thoughts into my head such as he'd apparently chatted to old friends of mine, they had confirmed to him that I was 'hard work', had MH problems, what on earth was he doing with me (they denied this after I confronted them after his death)
He was having an emotional affair , which I'm sure would have turned physical if he'd got his way. He told everyone, even on Facebook, that I was having an actual affair

B/ Someone recently hurt me very much. None of what my ex fiance did to me.
This person said tactless things and displayed thoughtless, hurtful behaviour.

They don't deny any of this... but they don't see how it hurt me. (are defensive). They are annoyed by my hurt and refuse to discuss it, by distancing. Saying they need space... when I've never made a single hurtful remark or done anything hurtful to them (very new relationship). It should surely have been me who needed space but I decided to be the adult and rise above it. I wanted to discuss it all and move forward but they will not at least not for now. I feel my feelings are not valid to them at all.. Like I'm to allowed to be hurt. I can't question what they've done. Or rather I am, but get ignored . It makes me feel worthless. I realise what they are doing is classic avoidance and shirking responsibility.
I accused them of gaslighting. But is it? It's not the same as A/ my ex fiance.

Are both examples of gaslighting?
Or is B/ more just a callous, insensitive person...but could not be perceived as GL. Not trying to let them off the hook! I've tried ending it because of this!
But just trying to make sense of it all and want to get my terms right.

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AnneOfQueenSables · 10/07/2020 15:45

B could be gaslighting or might just not share your view of events or care about your feelings. Being callous isn't gaslighting. It doesn't really matter what the label is.
Why have you only 'tried ending the relationship'? Why haven't you ended it?
Focusing on the terms is a type of avoidance. You can end the relationship because you want to .. . their behaviour doesn't need a recognised label.

alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 15:47

Anne, I get what you are saying, and you are right.
I wanted to end on phone but we are not talking.
I didn't want to in Messenger but should have been more clear.
I suggested we ended it. So i really need to go back and say 'it's over'

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alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 15:47

I think it's more, they've stopped caring about my feelings as they are so defensive and arrogant
So still every reason to leave

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AnneOfQueenSables · 10/07/2020 15:55

Honestly, having a situation where 'you're not talking' sounds exhausting and a sign that this isn't a healthy relationship. Imagine how much lighter you will feel if you just say 'it's over'.
Once you've ended this relationship, there's a book called Boundaries that might help you with relationships going forward. It won't help identify gaslighting but it does help you to distinguish and impose your own boundaries around the behaviour you accept. You obviously had an awful time with your ex and coming out of a relationship like that can make you doubt yourself. You need to learn to trust your judgement. The Lundy Bancroft books might help too or even the Freedom Programme Flowers

ShouldWeChangeTheBulb · 10/07/2020 15:58

A is gaslighting
B is passive aggressive

cariadlet · 10/07/2020 16:03

Gaslighting is when an abuser knows that they are being abusive and they try to convinced the abused person that they are imagining the abuse, that it's all in their heads.

That's not the same as being insensitive and not understanding why you are hurt by their behaviour. B doesn't seem like an example of gaslighting.

If you watch the old film Gaslight (original was 1940 but the 1944 remake starring Ingrid Bergman and Charles Boyer is more famous) you can see where the term comes from. It really shows the difference between abusive gaslighting behaviour and just indifference or callousness.

alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 16:07

A few friends suggested Freedom but I was a bit put off as didn't want to keep thinking about my very very abusive ex, like ripping the plaster off kind of thing as I have PTSD from that

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namechange12a · 10/07/2020 16:09

Gas lighting is where someone makes out that you are mad and does things in order to create evidence for that. For example, 'Look at the rain, it's pouring down.' Abusive Partner: 'What are you talking about? The sun's shining.' 'But I can see the rain.' 'That's not rain.'

You put down your keys and your partner puts them in his pocket and watches you run around looking for them and then puts them back and lets you find them.

You put something in the oven and go to check and the oven is off. Your partner has switched it off. You turn it on, go back to check half an hour later and he's turned it off again and denies all knowledge.

The point of gaslighting is to undermine you and make you doubt yourself. In the end some people actually have to ask their partner if it's raining outside as they can't trust what they see. That's how bad it is.

alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 16:10

What really stings is that the new person said I should never be afraid to ask them anything. That we'd always talk it through.
That we'd never go to bed on an argument (there's not been an actual full on row)
And now they won't talk
They wanted space and have their own issues to sort out and loose ends to tie up
However ignoring something they did that massively hurt me WHILE tieing up their loose ends, is not acceptable. I gave space and that's what I get... :(

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user1481840227 · 10/07/2020 16:20

B isn't gaslighting, it's more like stonewalling

AnneOfQueenSables · 10/07/2020 16:23

Have you had counselling for PTSD? It's easy to slip into unhealthy patterns with relationships and you need to make a conscious effort to break them. The Freedom Programme might not be right for you but I think until you find support for processing what happened with your ex then you're at risk of falling into other bad relationships.

alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 16:26

No, Anne. I just had general counselling at a woman's centre (didn't really help - and went to Al Anon a few nights a week for a year (did help me understand ex's behaviours and allowed me to rant and cry in a safe place without being judged)
I think for PTSD I'd have to pay and I'm already paying private health care right now for a medical issue that is taking up all my wages.
I was hoping to see a hypnotherapist for PTSD when have the money

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alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 16:27

Thanks User, I'll google stonewalling

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TenShortStories · 10/07/2020 16:40

Lots of people enthusiastically enter new relationships with rose-tinted ideas of how they will behave and how you'll interact with each other. Unfortunately most people just can't live up to that and end up doing things they said they wouldn't (cheating, leaving, storming out of arguments, getting aggressive), and that's not even getting started on those who actively choose to be abusive. All you can do is figure out where your own boundaries lie and be prepared to walk away when they are crossed. It sucks carrying trauma from one relationship to the next, but it sounds like you're interested in unpicking it all and getting into healthier relationships, which is a great start.

SettingUp792 · 10/07/2020 16:52

I can understand that you felt the same way with B as you did when you were gaslighted in A .. your reality is that you were wronged but he was acting as if was the victim and that he was wronged.... It's a similar feeling and I've felt both so I understand it a bit. I agree with others though B sounds frustrating and invalidating but not gaslighting.

I'm so sorry what you went through with your ex , it sounds horrendous.

alltoomuchrightnow · 10/07/2020 23:06

thanks for the replies and clarity
Yes am establishing boundaries
I know what I will and won't put up with, leaving DV taught me that

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