Hi everyone I really need some advice as to why I'm feeling the way I am . Is it me being a bad person , anxiety or something like autism or Aspergers . I hate change . The slightest change can get me all worried and I literally will lose sleep over it for weeks . My partner years ago when he was learning to drive . The day he had his test I wanted him to fail because I didn't want him to drive because it would mean change . My daughter going on holidays for two weeks with her grand parents I would have anxiety of her coming home because my routine would change again . My boyfriend now has signed up to do football . I have been in a complete state because now our routine will change . I don't show my partner or daughter any of this and they probably would be shocked that I have felt the way I have for years . We have had 3 pets . I have given them all away because I could now cope with all the change . Literally when I feel like this I feel really depressed and feel like running away because I just can't cope and need to be on my own for a while . Does anyone know why this is ? It's driving me Insane now .