Hello

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Im a 30 year old young woman, I have two children. Ive never been married and left my children's father 4 years ago, he went to jail for domestic violence.

Like any other survivor, I have long term after effects. PTSD, ANXIETY.

Ive dated here and there since I left my ex, I cant seem to let men get close to me.

I have huge trust issues.

Im struggling with men, I feel like its me.

Am I broken?

Am I not worthy because I may be broken?

I dont think its the most important thing in the world, a relationship. My children and myself are more important.

But I've only ever had one relationship.

I didnt date in school, and I was pregnant with my daughter at a young age, 18.

And it was a very toxic one.

I guess im just looking for different perspectives, maybe answers. **

Of course you are worthy. Have you had any counselling?

Yes. Obviously it didn't work.

There's nothing wrong with you, you are not broken.

In fact I think you are wonderful. I think you're the absolute bees knees for getting out of your abusive relationship and for looking after yourself and your children. You're amazing.

Have you done the Freedom Programme or any trauma based counselling or therapy such as EMDR?

Like PP I recommend EMDR, it's awesome, you can get it on the NHS.

The Freedom Programme will help you learn warning signs and when you find an in-person group (when we're allowed) you'll meet a lovely, supportive bunch of women. Some of the facilitators are doing other programmes via Zoom during lockdown. www.freedomprogramme.co.uk/ You can also do the course online.

The freedom programme is not offered in my area. Im in the US.