Help me block a narcissist!

[Helpmemoveon76844]

Regular poster, NC for this ...

I got rid of a narcissist last summer,
10 months ago.

I think he is a classic covert narcissist ( please just read that as fact, he displays every sign and symptom of having it) and he put me through hell, we were together for 6 years, and it was the worst and most abusive relationship of my life.

I honestly think he hates me , he betrayed me and abused me so often I don't even want to think about it.

Last summer I found out he was sleeping with my daughters ( not his daughter, mine , we don't have a child together) friends from school mum, he met her at a school event thingy . Anyway... It gave me all I needed to end the relationship. But I can't seem to actually block him on everything.

He emailed tonight and it just started off innocently but he just gets under my skin and I don't know how he does it

Now I feel sick and angry with myself. Why do I keep letting him do this?

Help me block him. And tell me he doesn't contact me because he loves me, he contacts me to get a bit of attention for five minutes.

[Helpmemoveon76844]

It does feel like an addiction but it's just that awful stage of addiction where you lower yourself in order to feed it just so you can feel normal. I've gone through so many stages with it all. The relationship was not good for years before the break.

I read threads on here about a husband who did this or that and people say LTB and I marvel at the clarity these people have. In my case, he treated me very, very badly and I still reply to his emails?

I know I'm never going to get what I need, an apology or explanation or anything real but I still hoped I would somehow, it makes no sense.

It is very difficult to realise that he never felt anything for me.

Anyway. I'm getting my housework done and spending the afternoon with my gorgeous one.

Tonight I'm going to start working through the ideas people gave me.

And he is still blocked , although I want to cry when I think that.