So as ive previously mentioned in the past i have quite serious PTSD from my time in the military at war so id like to firstly point out that although i always seem to pick out my partners misjudgements and mistakes i fully understand that my own mental health plays a huge part in my confusion and the whole relationship.
Any way if youve seen my previous cries for help this will make alot more sense.
After many struggles after what was imo infidelity on her side weve been great lately. However shes developed trust issues towards my loyalty and worries about me doing the dirty.
Shes mentioned before about worrying about me getting revenge. Admitedly i have told her that i dont know why i forgive as ive always believed its unforgivable but simply cannot phsycally give up on her or us. Yes i believe a taste of her own medicine would be deserved however as much as i think that it turns my stomach to think of it and couldnt do that. Ive said lack of consiquence is perfect for a cheat to take advantage of. Also i believe cheats dont change they just get better at hiding things.
I was blunt and upfront wen shes asked these things but thought the truth was wat she needed to hear.
Sounds crazy but my heart belonhs to her. This relationship has actually made me stronger than ever..tought me to do things for me first and follow my own heart.
Dont know what i was asking with this post but boys gotta vent. Opinions greatly valued as always