Straight to the point. I have been on 3 dates with this guy and yesterday, stupidly I slept with him...and I feel terrible as even more stupidly we didn't use protection, and although I am on the pill obv I am now worried about STDs...but that's a different story.
I know he won't want anymore to do with me, he has already started ignoring me online etc. I have never done anything like that before (he was only the 3rd person I have ever slept with) and I feel so bad that I let him use me! The thing is, he is no great loss as hadn't got any major feelings for him, BUT this latest disaster has made me so despondent about ever meeting anyone else. I am 33, have lost most of my friends through moving around alot with husband and the only way I can meet people is through the internet, but this has really put me off.
As an aside, my life is not great atm, living with my parents (with my DD), got fired last month, so jobhunting. Going through a divorce (hubby is being an arse and currently does not pay maintenance) and I am fed up with not having friends. Reading that backI sound so self pitying, I am not, just don't know how to get myself out of this hole!!
Don't know what I want from this post really, maybe to know that I am not the only one who has made a mess of my life !