it was all over something so pathetic and not even worth explaining but basically it came down to the same thing as most of our arguments... him thinking im selfish, moany, insensitive bitch who throws everything i do for him back in his face, and me thinking he thinks the world and everything i do should revolve around him and his kids and he is unreasonable in the things he expects me to do at the drop of a hat.
last night he said awful things to me things i would never dream he would say to me and things i would never dream of saying to him. Basically we split up, but eventually he told me he does still love me and can i come round tomorrow(This morning)
anyway, i didn't end up going round this morning as one of his boys is ill and off school and as i haven't met his kids yet i couldn't go and see him. Although other than maybe sorting something out between us i didn't really want to see him.
To be honest i can no longer see a future with this man. Last night he showed his true colours and i think he has just too much baggage and issues and it just wont work in the long run.
But i still love him more than anything (except my ds)
We haven't sorted anything out yet and have only spoken for a few mins on the phone this morning. i wont be seeing him until Sunday night.
It would be the hardest thing i would ever have to do to walk away from him but i feel like its time to now. But another concern is he owes me £415 and i can no way afford to just loose it. He cant afford to pay it back yet and if we split then il loose it. And i cant exactly ask him now what would happen if we split would he still give me the money back cos it will look like im with him just for my money!
Feel so down today and confused about what i want and what is right for me and ds.
someone cheer me up please