Me and DH have had a rough time over the last 18 months.
I won't go into too many details but last year it reached a head, he told me exactly what he thought of me, that he didn't love me, how all the arguments we have are because of my temper, basically what a horrible person I am.
I couldn't really see what he meant, but he made me feel that nobody else would ever have me, I was at rock bottom.
I'm ashamed to say that I begged him to stay, told him that I would change etc and so we have just rubbed along. Until now.
I realised several months ago that no, I don't have a temper- well only when we have an argument where he won't let me get a word in, I end up raising my voice. I realised that he gaslights me, stonewalls me. Basically every argument is my fault.
We have not been out together on a date or just an evening out for 4 years.
Sex is non existent and when it does happen is over in less than 5 minutes.
He shows me no affection, I don't fancy him. I don't want to engage with him.
I want out.
How do I find the strength to tell him things are over?
I know I only have one option, I just needed to write things down and for people to tell me I am making the right decision...
We have 3DC and it's going to break their hearts.