Hi,
I’ve named changed for this as I am so ashamed of my behaviour.
My son and I have been staying with my mum and brother during lockdown. I have been really unwell And still am (not Covid related) so she has been a massive help with childcare and I can’t really fault her.
Today my 16 year old brother has went and met someone from a separate household. Which is fair enough if they were social distancing but they weren’t- he got into the car with them and has went off out.
This has stemmed into a massive argument with my mum and I. Apparently I have issues with everything he does etc etc. I don’t- he just treats my mum bad but that is a separate story.
The argument turned into shouting, me crying and some names been thrown back and fourth with her then asking me to leave.
I feel like I have failed as a mother, my son is still there as I have had to come back to our house and I have no shopping in etc and literally do not have the energy with being so poorly. My best friend has said she will go to Sainsbury’s in the morning then I will go for him.
I just feel awful, the argument escalated and it was all infront Of my little boy and I feel so guilty, I can’t stop crying and I know I’m in the wrong so please don’t make me feel any worse. My mum and I were both in the wrong, I’m not blaming her at all but I tried to call a truce and she just went on and on.
I don’t kbow why I’m posting, I just feel so down and had nowhere to vent. And now I feel like the worst person in the world.