...mainly because a couple of my old friends are posting about me on social media about how 'mental' and disturbed i am.
It really hurts.
Last year, I was in a really bad place. I had come out of an abusive relationship, became depressed and had a great deal of anxiety. I lived with my friend at the time only now I realise she made it so much worse. She had a severe lack of empathy and when I had anxiety spells she would tell me I needed to pull myself together and that I was way too sensitive. At the same time, she would always drag me out clubbing to try and meet guys.
Then I did meet a guy, but instead of being supportive, she became really bitter and told me I was too 'crazy' for him and he deserved better ( I think she may have liked him). We had a lot of arguments which always resulted in her gaslighting me and making me feel like I was mental. I ended up going back to therapy because of her and this only convinced her more I was crazy.
I moved in with my boyfriend when lockdown began because I needed to cut her out of my life. It's now a few months since I left her but she's now sending my personal messages to other friends in a group chat and they're all laughing me. These are messages I sent her back in a time where I was really distressed and they make me seem like I'm super disturbed. I really just want to forget the hell that was last year but she keeps bringing things up. She's also been calling me a freak on social media which has upset my whole family.
I haven't said a word and I've been ignoring everything she does but it hurts so bad. I feel like I'm going to be known as the 'mentally insane' one forever and nothing I do will ever make me appear stable or normal again :(