Its over, I wanted it over but struggling.

[Dotty02]

So been in a really rocky relationship for 9 years, we have broke up over and over again. I guess I'm scared of being alone as I have nc with family and relied solely on him..the more I think there has been emotional abuse but I just put up with it. It wasn't a loving relationship I felt alone everyday. So weekend when he left i rang police as there was physical violence, he got arrested and I locked doors and he playing blame game...putting it all on me, so now I'm second guessing myself and feel completely rubbish.

You did the right thing. No one should put up with abuse of ANY kind. Now be nice to yourself, you are stronger than you think, and deserve to be treated well. So do that. Treat yourself well.

Block him so he can't get in your head.
Have you done the Freedom Programme?

Do you have a female friend you can talk to on the phone?
Do you have a pet? Much better company than some abusive arsehole man.

I will look into freedom programme, I'm waiting for women's aid to contact again for allocated worker..we do have children together and a dog.
I'm frustrated he is nice to everyone else so bet whatever stuff he saying they will believe.
My children know the truth they have heard/seen things they shouldn't...its so difficult just writing this gets me anxious.

You did the right thing. Please think no further about him, think of yourself and your children. x

Thank you. Had a better morning,managed to get dressed took the children for a walk. We back at home now having dinner. Plan is to tackle housework next not touched it in few days. He was at my door this morn knocked twice and left so least there was no drama.