Struggling

[Gd1988]

Hi I need help. My mental health is bad and I’m having severe mood swings due to pmdd but being stuck at home in lockdown me and other half are arguing more and the other night I found my self lashing out badly to the point now I’m struggling to live with myself for hitting him. Please help dr calling me in morn to discuss my mental health but I feel so guilty

You're doing the right thing, speaking to your gp. Be honest with them and get the help you need.

Thank you. Never been this bad before but I was so bad the other nice I’m surprised he’s still here. He obviously understands I’m not well and we’ve been together 4 years and never been like this so he understands in a way but still I feel so guilty for attacking him: I’m heartbroken tbh

respectphoneline.org.uk/ You might find speaking to them useful.

Make sure you follow through with the gp (and if alcohol was involved, you need to stop drinking).

Let the guilt drive you to make changes now for everyone's sake, don't just damp it down. You can get to a better place.

Thank you. Alcohol wasn’t involved just lack of sleep and an argument at sill o’clock. The guilt is bad as I’ve never done it before. Gp is calling today and I will tell her what happened. I ask my partner when I’m in a bad place please leave
Me alone but he don’t and it cause a row and in the end I lashed out badly and I’m disgusted I’m myself because of it. We have made up but the guilts there

See if there's mental health crisis team near you, they were invaluable when my daughter had an episode, we rang them and they were lovely, they talked her down from the state she was in and listened to her and sorted out an emergency appointment for her.
Just remember this is a dark point now, but it won't last and you will recover