I think lockdown has made me realise who is important. Backstory is both parents have passed away and I have one sister and one brother. Since parents have died I have made an effort with both but it's been like banging my head against a wall. Sister has always been aloof/rude towards me. Never asks anything about my life and on the rare occasion she does and I start telling her she'll reply with either silence or 'oh OK', nothing more. She says she is so busy with her kids etc, has quite a snobby attitude about everything. For the sake of my DC and hers I have tried to hang out often but it is painful each time tbh. I do not enjoy the experience at all. It always feel very awkward and tense, not relaxed in the slightest.
My brother and I used to get on with much better and there are rare occasions when we do have a nice chat but trying to meet up with him is very difficult and on his terms. Even if we set a date or time he will often cancel last minute, sometimes not even telling me until I ask!
Since lockdown, we have been in a 'family group' on fb. I made an effort at the beginning. I should add I am a single parent so have barely spoken to anyone in 8 weeks. We arranged a family call which lasted about 5 minutes before the connection cut off. A few weeks later I arranged to speak to my brother and his kids (who my DC love). My brother and I arranged a time and date in advance. I rang at that time and chatted to my brother briefly. He said he would ring me later instead as kids were about to eat. Later on around 4pm I sent a message on WhatsApp asking if kids were ready? My DC were looking forward to it. He read the message on WhatsApp at the time then I get a reply at 9pm saying sorry he didn't see my message and they are in bed.
Sorry to bore you with the details but I've been quite lonely these last few weeks and just realise my family are useless. I haven't heard from either sister or brother in 3 weeks then get a 'how are you?' in family group this morning. I could say 'I'm OK, very well etc' or 'things have been awful, the house has fallen down' and the responses I'll get will either be 'that's good' or 'oh no'.
Sorry, too much detail but in 8 weeks we have spoken just twice (well DC just once)! I just feel like what's the point? Do they even care? I have been chatting to people I barely know more since lockdown. Should I continue to bother anymore? Avoid the family group or just reply with 'I'm fine' and never bother even replying. Obviously, they are the only family I have, other than DC but this lack or level of contact is quite depressing. Wwyd?